Bird...

For Now i wish... just one wish... To fly or to swim... where I can feel the breeze brushing my cheeks...As what I wish for now is to be a bird but as I live in human form and have my role fixed may be next birth I'll be a bird...

Bird with wings... no thoughts but to fly all day... from one place to other... no horizon no boundary... no soul mate no namesake for any sake...

I want to feel light not only weight but from mind I want to have peace, peace of thoughts peace of mind....

Where the next day is to fly to other place, my wings flapping in the air.. clouds... I see from my tiny eyes I shut them while passing through them....

Where I don't have to be on time in office where I have no botheration of dressing up, there is no one to maintain the traffic rules, and no one to tell where to do what, Engulfed in my thoughts I fly from one place to other...

Every day is the way I want to spend... Everyday its me and no one else....

Quit!!! Should I ??

Its hard to be back to work after 30 days of off. I am in a fix should I continue working or should I quit.

Its not that simple a question , I can't continue working in such an environment where boot licking is your job profile... u can't stand in favour of truth and u always have to zip your mouth and most important I see no growth.

When I have so many reasons to support my decision then the question is why I can't.

Now again its not that simple...

1. If I leave my job I have to go back home (which I do not wish to).

2.I won't be able to meet Sidharth and Sayan which I have been longing for past two years and one of the major reason to come to Delhi for work.

3.In the mean time if Sayan plans to talk I wish to spend some time with him.

4. I like to stay independent, alone and in Delhi.

5. It was my dream to be here.


I don't know if these all points are relevant or not but then they matter to me the most right now. As such after two months we all have to land in different states and stay away... distance no matter would prevail in our lives but if I can ignore it for a while why not.

The price which I play is not less but then not too high... a time pass job which gets me 12,000 for 30 days of slaughtering.

Perfect ! ( Is It !)

I can't make up my mind I did not have enough of my two best buddies...May be this is my last month and I wish to live it to the fullest with them.... but time demands something else and I totally deny to give time what it wants because this I want something which matters to me the most and I have been dreaming to live it I can't afford to let it go so easily.

I want to spend my precious time with them. I made it, but I had no one to celebrate with.... Sayan had told me once " you would get the best , you just have to wait ".... and when I achieved it he is not talking to me.

Its not hard to digest your sorrows when your friends are around but it hurts the most when they are not around to celebrate your victory.

To make up my mind to leave this job is hard as I might loose on to the precious time which I can spend with my friends.

May be i am thinking too hard on this i should let it go. May be things take a turn which might prove to be the best for the situation.

Lets see what happens I plan to challenge Time, Destiny and above all myself.... Who wins is a suspense....